Beautiful Mountains!

It's like I have writer's block or something, I have so many things to say but don't quite know where to start.
The Lord has been teaching me a lot about being obedient to Him. I just started a new study with my bible study group called How to Hear God's Voice by Mark Virkler. I am very excited to dive in and soak up every single little thing the Lord has for me in it!
This is all leading to say that the Lord longs to speak to us so much more than we can hear Him. I tend to get frustrated when I go up and down with my ability to hear God and can't quite stay on an even level with it all. But I am learning that if I were to stay on that same level all the time I wouldn't be growing with Him. I am learning that with God leading the way there will be ups and downs as I am climbing that mountain. And once I reach the top there is just going to be another one that I will have to climb.
A couple of weeks ago Cory and I had an interesting thing happen where someone came out to look at the home we were renting from the church. He was an investor and wanted to look into using the homes for ministry purposes. Let's just say many feelings were going on inside me and the moment the man left I broke down into tears. I started asking God why this was happening and that I didn't understand.
Later that afternoon I went for a run. I could sense that God really wanted to speak to me, so as I was listening to worship music He began to speak. "Samara, why are you scared? Why do you care so much if you loose this home? You know that I will take care of you! I have already asked you to go over a mountain once before, so why do you insist on being content with the little hills? If I ask you to go over another mountain I can guarantee it won't be easy, but I will be with you! I will help you!
As I continued my run I realized that every time I go on this particular route I skip a large hill and just turn arond and go back. This time the Lord wanted me to go up it, so I did. Once I got to the top He asked me "What do you see?" All around me was beautiful sceenery, mountains, and a gorgeous sky. He said "Every time you climb a mountain with me you can see more of My beauty!"
I long to be obedient, I strive to be obedient to what God is saying to me. Often times I fail, but I keep trying. I get back up and allow the Lord to comfort me even when I don't feel worthy of it.
I am excited to learn how to better hear God's voice. It's something that I yearn for each day.